M I alive

a tear for a sadness i cant name..
a wistful longing i've never before known
a dagger at my heart ...it's piercing me..
an unborn pain...not my own..
it's drowning me in this deep dark sea..
It wont kill me...It doesnt let me live
like a parasite sucking my life
it's taking me away ...its taking me away..
I am no more..
and then I am back to living again..
....but m i alive?
my breath comes out in strangled gasps
my heart's but.. a shrunken mass..

The tears have dried and the dreams are back..
yet I know tht they will never be true
I have only dreams to sustain me
Dreams tht r gradually killing me...